Never in My Life

Did I expect to be

typing this—reliving

the experience that

I have dread most.

May 21, 2006

Basket Case

Mood: Drained

Category: Life

it truly was the

most horrible

experience of

my life.

I knew that it

was because I

thought there

was no one who

could help me with

my problems; no one

who wanted to hear

what I had to say.

Unfortunately I

Still feel this way,

Which is why I

Know this anxiety

ATTACK will not

Have been my last.

This poem will

Probably stay private

For the entirety of

Its life, or at least

Until I decide to

Get rid of it.

I never thought

That something

Like this would

Ever happen to me.

I am a pretty in

Control-of-my-life

Person; nothing in

My life has ever

Gotten this out

Of hand. All I

Can say is that

I hope that maybe

I’ll find someone

Who understands;

Someone who wont

Look at me and say

Get help. Someone

Who will look at me

And say “I understand.

And I’m here for you

Always.

I promise.”

(yet another poem from Creative Writing. We were prompted to write about a difficult or life changing experience. I wrote a poem based on one of my previous blogs from 2007.)